tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22941690451453335402011-10-09T16:40:18.932+08:00Life is not the amount of breaths you take. It's the moments that take your breath away.綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.comBlogger231100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-19195043930673130532011-10-09T15:56:00.005+08:002011-10-09T16:40:18.964+08:00十月九日, 按慣例在午後開始蘇醒過來, 然後走下樓梯, 開始聽取媽媽將報紙上與我們息息相關的新聞簡報, 只是今天的相關度稍微高了些, 那是我的一個學生車禍死了. <br /><br />拿著報紙詳細地讀著, 試圖找著文章描述和我所認知的不同點, 就在接受與否認兩種感覺短兵相接時, 媽媽打開門問在門外一直哭泣的貓咪在叫些甚麼, 然後貓咪就帶著媽媽去到平時小貓咪睡覺的地方, 原來小貓咪死了, 血流滿地, 看起來像是被打死的, 有一隻連身體都不見了, 只剩個頭和四肢, 三隻小貓死了兩隻, 另一隻躲在有鐵細網的鐵門後面發抖著, 我嘗試叫他出來, 可他只用驚恐的眼神看著我, 然後在我想把他拉出來的時候差點被他揮舞的利爪掃中, 無奈之下只好先走開, 等他走出來時媽媽再用木板壓著不讓他攻擊, 然後捉去一個比較安全的地方. <br /><br />母貓由始至終只能哭, 一直流連在屍體邊看著我, 希望我可以救他們, 可惜我不是魔炮使者, 也不懂得甚麼死者蘇生術, 我只是個除了摸摸他的頭安慰他以外甚麼都做不到的平凡人, 平凡得只能等死的平凡人.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-1919504393067313053?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-58862158984541866382011-09-21T02:40:00.002+08:002011-09-21T03:14:15.902+08:00可悲的是 我只能看著<br />可笑的是 我不曾阻止<br /><br />有人說 絕望會從你放棄的那一刻開始降臨<br />所以想讓一個人絕望 只需要不斷地把他的希望奪走<br />但是這方法只對自以為聰明的人有效<br />對於不知放棄為何物的傻子一點用都沒有<br />也就是說 趋近於的概念不適用在將失望轉換成絕望上<br /><br />可憐的是 我只是個絕望的傻子<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-5886215898454186638?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-9470680884988579892009-12-01T14:42:00.001+08:002009-12-01T17:14:37.866+08:00我夢到我在天堂<br />有一位天使正在記錄著生命冊<br />他寫得好專心<br />使我想一窺究竟<br />起初吸引我的並非天使所寫的內容<br />而是墨水瓶中那個被標示著 --永恆的墨水<br /><br />這種墨水實在是太神奇了<br />剛寫下去時是深黑色的<br />但當它一碰到生命冊裡的羊皮紙<br />它的顏色就變得如水般透明<br />天使不停地寫不停地寫<br />但奇怪的是<br />因著這個神奇墨水筆<br />寫下去的字消失的速度如一眨眼般<br />天使旁若無人<br />不停地寫寫寫<br />他翻動著每一頁不停地寫<br />直到每一處的空白都填滿為止<br />我覺得他真是徒勞無功<br />所有的力氣都白費了<br />因為他再也沒辦法回頭看這<br />辛辛苦苦寫出的上千頁文字<br /><br />在狐疑中<br />我終於看到了一個黑色的字<br />出現在透明的字行之中<br />在天使的臉上<br />我看到了一絲滿意的眼神<br />終於在他那麼認真的書寫中<br />有點東西可以展示了<br />有一兩行的文字呈現出黑色的墨水<br />但奇怪的是<br />下一個段落又成為透明的顏色<br />又沒有辦法看見了<br /><br />本子越來越滿<br />天使仍然認真的在寫<br />但放眼望去 一片空白<br />只有少數幾個字穿插在空白中<br />我知道裡頭一定有些原因<br />但我再怎麼努力想也想不透<br />這個神奇墨水的奧秘<br />真的好想好想知道<br /><br />終於我鼓起勇氣問天使<br />請他解釋一下這個奧秘<br />他所說的令我好害怕<br />天使轉過頭來定睛的看著我<br />他說：<br />我知道你很懷疑我所做的事價值為何。<br /><br />但上帝吩咐我記錄下<br />人類生命中的點點滴滴<br />在這本書中我確實的紀錄下了<br />人類的每句話每個舉動<br />因為你在看<br />我必須告訴你實話<br />本子中的細節<br />全部都是對於你鉅細靡遺的紀錄<br />上帝要求我鑒察你<br /><br />工作時娛樂時<br />你去教堂時我看著你<br />你禱告時我看著你<br />但我必須要記錄你日復一日的生活<br />我寫下了你的驕傲自大<br />也寫下了你的溫柔<br />不論是好的態度或是壞的態度<br />我都記錄了下來<br />我很抱歉我必須寫下一些讓上帝難過的事情<br />現在我要告訴你這個神奇墨水的奧秘<br /><br />這個奧秘可以讓你好好思考 其中的意義<br />上帝所創造的的這個墨水<br />是幫助我只要記錄下可以存到永遠的事情<br />如此一來<br />我就不用再刪除那些生命中毫無意義的事<br />把本子刪得烏漆摸黑的<br /><br />我所要做的是<br />忠誠地紀錄下所有的事情<br />剩下的就由墨水來決定什麼才是有意義的<br />上帝照著我所記錄下來的來審判<br />而你所做的若沒什麼意義<br />自然的就會消失不見<br /><br />某天當生命冊被打開<br />天堂真實地座落在你眼前時<br />上帝的神奇墨水將會分辨<br />什麼和你最有關係<br />如果你只為了自己活<br />你的扉頁將是空白的<br />等你到了這裡<br />上帝將不會給你任何獎賞<br />事實上，你會感到羞愧<br />你將會把你的頭浸在羞恥之中<br />因為你並沒有委身於基督耶穌的愛裡<br /><br />雖然或許有幾行字仍然留著<br />代表著你曾真正的關心<br />真誠的去愛與禱告<br />但你仍舊會驚嘆<br />如果你做的更多<br />當你踏入天堂時<br />那喜樂將會是何等的大<br />聽完了天使的一番話<br />我撲倒在地上放聲大哭<br />雖然這只是一場夢<br />我還沒有真正的死亡<br /><br />我說：天使啊！告訴上帝<br />等我一起床<br />我會為主而活<br />我願意為神慈愛的緣故做任何事<br />我甘心降服在祂面前<br />願意照著祂的旨意而行<br />我要背棄不真實的自我和罪<br />雖然這條路看來似乎長又崎嶇<br />我願意承受並且一生追尋聖潔，清心，與單純的事物<br /><br />藉著耶穌是我的幫助<br />我要為祂贏得失喪的靈魂<br />因為我知道他們將和上帝一同活在永恆裡<br />而這才是真正重要的<br /><br />當在世的年歲已盡<br />我站在神的面前才可以聽見神說：做的好！<br />難道使我的生命瀕臨在危險邊緣是有價值的嗎 ？<br />此時我才了解到上帝為什麼要用永恆的墨水來紀錄生命冊<br />難道我應該把我的生命浪費在轉眼間如塵土的事上？不！<br />因此 我要服侍神<br /><br />我能 我將要 我必須！！<br />我將不會任一空白的扉頁<br />呈現在上帝威嚴的寶座前<br />因為記錄所在的地方就是我永恆的家<br /><br />我將我所擁有的獻給耶穌<br />我已經看到了上帝和生命的關聯<br />因為我看到了一位天使<br />握著上帝的神奇墨水筆<br />在紀錄著我的生命<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-947068088498857989?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-36186442763543957852009-10-22T22:21:00.003+08:002009-10-22T22:29:25.644+08:00因為不喜歡被打擾<br />所以選擇了寂寞<br /><br />因為不想再受傷害<br />所以選擇了不愛<br /><br />因為不想再次面對<br />所以選擇了逃避<br /><br />因為不想被人了解<br />所以選擇了距離<br /><br />因為想要被人想念<br />所以選擇了離開<br /><br />因為不懂解釋誤會<br />所以選擇了沉默<br /><br />因為已經於事無補<br />所以選擇了放棄<br /><br />因為想要獲得解脫<br />所以選擇了死亡<br /><br />因為了解光陰難買<br />所以選擇了認真<br /><br />因為知道後悔沒用<br />所以選擇了珍惜<br /><br />因為懂得學會珍惜<br />所以選擇了等待<br /><br />有因為<br />就有所以<br /><br />因為所以<br />才有道理<br /><br />[小言]<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-3618644276354395785?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-86321826007817464692009-08-25T19:02:00.000+08:002009-08-25T19:04:15.700+08:00夢のつづき　追いかけていたはずなのに<br />曲がりくねった　細い道　人につまずく<br />あの頃みたいにって　戻りたい訳じゃないの<br />無くしてきた空を　探してる<br />わかってくれますように　犠牲になったような　悲しい顔はやめてよ<br />罪の最後は涙じゃないよ　ずっと苦しく背負ってくんだ<br />出口見えない感情迷路に　誰を待ってるの?<br />白いノートに綴ったように　もっと素直に吐き出したいよ<br />何から　逃れたいんだ　…現実ってやつ?<br />叶えるために　生きてるんだって<br />忘れちゃいそうな　夜の真ん中<br />無難になんて　やってられないから　…帰る場所もないの<br />この想いを　消してしまうには　まだ人生長いでしょ?(I'm on the way)<br />懐かしくなる　こんな痛みも歓迎じゃん<br /><br />謝らなくちゃいけないよね　ah　ごめんね<br />うまく言えなくて　心配かけたままだったね<br />あの日かかえた全部　あしたかかえる全部<br />順番つけたりは　しないから<br />わかってくれますように　そっと目を閉じたんだ<br />見たくないものまで　見えんだもん<br />いらないウワサにちょっと 初めて聞く発言どっち?<br />2回会ったら友達だって?? ウソはやめてね<br />赤いハートが苛立つように 身体ん中燃えているんだ<br />ホントは 期待してんの …現実ってやつ?<br />叶えるために 生きてるんだって<br />叫びたくなるよ 聞こえていますか?<br />無難になんて やってられないから　…帰る場所もないの<br />優しさには　いつも感謝してる　だから強くなりたい(I'm on the way)<br />進むために　敵も味方も歓迎じゃん<br />どうやって次のドア　開けるんだっけ?考えてる?<br />もう引き返せない　物語　始まってるんだ<br />目を覚ませ　目を覚ませ<br /><br />この想いを　消してしまうには　まだ人生長いでしょ?<br />やり残してるコト やり直してみたいから<br />もう一度ゆこう　叶えるために　生きてるんだって<br />叫びたくなるよ 聞こえていますか?<br />無難になんて やってられないから …帰る場所もないの<br />優しさには　いつも感謝してる だから強くなりたい(I'm on the way)<br />懐かしくなる こんな痛みも歓迎じゃん<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-8632182600781746469?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-831680018791995022009-08-02T06:33:00.001+08:002009-08-02T06:36:31.174+08:00最近看到大家寫PHP寫得很開心,<br />就也來寫一寫....<br />結果在發貼的時候還不小心發現blogspot的一個bug....<br /><br />下面是羅馬數字轉換的代碼....<br />參考可以....<br />抄的人考試一定會當掉....<br /><pre><br />$z="1985";<br />function abc($a,$b,$c,$d)<br />{<br /> switch($a)<br /> {<br /> case 1:<br /> echo $b;<br /> break;<br /> case 2:<br /> echo $b.$b;<br /> break;<br /> case 3:<br /> echo $b.$b.$b;<br /> break;<br /> case 4:<br /> echo $b.$c;<br /> break;<br /> case 5:<br /> echo $c;<br /> break;<br /> case 6:<br /> echo $c.$b;<br /> break;<br /> case 7:<br /> echo $c.$b.$b;<br /> break;<br /> case 8:<br /> echo $c.$b.$b.$b;<br /> break;<br /> case 9:<br /> echo $b.$d;<br /> break;<br /> }<br />}<br /><br />if($z<"1" and $z!="")<br />{<br /> echo "Salahlah Bang";<br />}<br />else<br />{<br /> switch ($z)<br /> {<br /> case $z>="1000":<br /> $a=sprintf("%d",$z/1000);<br /> $z=$z-($a*1000);<br /> for($q=1;$q<=$a;$q++)<br /> {<br /> echo "M";<br /> }<br /> <br /> case $z<"1000" and $z>="100":<br /> $a=sprintf("%d",$z/100);<br /> $z=$z-($a*100);<br /> $b="C";<br /> $c="D";<br /> $d="M";<br /> abc($a,$b,$c,$d);<br /> <br /> case $z<"100" and $z>="10":<br /> $a=sprintf("%d",$z/10);<br /> $z=$z-($a*10);<br /> $b="X";<br /> $c="L";<br /> $d="C";<br /> abc($a,$b,$c,$d);<br /> <br /> case $z<"10" and $z>="1":<br /> $a=sprintf("%d",$z);<br /> $z=$z-$a;<br /> $b="I";<br /> $c="V";<br /> $d="X";<br /> abc($a,$b,$c,$d);<br /> break; <br /> }<br />}<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-83168001879199502?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-54640407029165878852009-06-04T03:57:00.001+08:002009-06-04T03:57:57.234+08:00I know there's something in the wake of your smile.<br />I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.<br />You've built a love but that love falls apart.<br />Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.<br /><br />Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.<br />Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.<br />I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,<br />but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.<br /><br />Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.<br />The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.<br />They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,<br />the feeling of belonging to your dreams.<br /><br />Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.<br />Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.<br />I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,<br />but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.<br /><br />And there are voices that want to be heard.<br />So much to mention but you can't find the words.<br />The scent of magic, the beauty that's been when love was wilder than the wind.<br /><br />Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.<br />Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.<br />I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,<br />but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.<br /><br />Listen to your heart<br /><br />I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,<br />but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-5464040702916587885?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-26383347363549187112009-05-31T19:05:00.003+08:002009-05-31T19:08:59.004+08:00<p>I close the door<br />Like so many times, so many times before<br />Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor<br />When I let you walk away tonight<br />Without a word<br />I try to sleep, yeah<br />But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me<br />A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh<br />If you were here right now, I swear,<br />I'd tell you this<br />Baby I don't want to waste another day<br />Keeping it inside it's killing me<br />Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you<br />To you!<br />I'm wishing I could find the words to say<br />Baby I would tell you every time you leave<br />I'm inconsolable<br />I climb the walls,yeah<br />I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.<br />I've memorized the number<br />So why can't I make the call?<br />Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me<br />In the possibility<br />Baby I don't want to waste another day<br />Keeping it inside it's killing me<br />Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you<br />To you!<br />I'm wishing I could find the words to say<br />Baby I would tell you every time you leave<br />I'm inconsolable<br />I don't want to be like this,<br />I just want to let you know,<br />Everything that I'm holding,<br />Is everything I can't let go, can't let go.<br />It's Baby I don't want to waste another day<br />Keeping it inside it's killing me<br />Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you<br />To you!<br />I'm wishing I could find the words to say<br />Baby I would tell you every time you leave<br />I'm inconsolable<br />'Cause don't you know it baby I don't want to waste another day<br />I'm wishing I could find the words to say<br />Baby I would tell you every time you leave<br />I'm inconsolable<br />I'm inconsolable<br />I'm inconsolable</p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-2638334736354918711?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-15821793725806911362009-05-14T01:42:00.001+08:002009-05-14T03:12:47.144+08:00雨越下越大了<br />冷颼颼的空氣<br />好像在欺騙著我說<br />剛剛的酷熱根本就不曾存在<br /><br />小小的房間裡<br />敲鍵盤的聲音<br />點滑鼠的聲音<br />風扇軸承的聲音<br />雨滴打在屋瓦的聲音<br />偶爾夾雜一點點的雷聲<br />除此之外甚麼都沒有了<br /><br />少得可憐的存在<br />重複不斷的節奏<br />如果不是桌面上時鐘的數字不停地往下個數字跳動<br />或許會讓我以為時間是靜止的<br />而這些存在則會跟著這個節奏無止境地重複下去<br />然後就這樣死去也不錯<br /><br />人為甚麼要活在這個世界上?<br />Aw你是這樣問的吧<br />人活在這個世界上大概是為了死去吧<br />至少大家都是這樣子<br />有的人做了些甚麼才死去<br />有的人甚麼都不做就死去<br />也有的人來不及做些甚麼就死去<br /><br />每個生命的出生就注定了總有一天的死亡<br />沒有死亡的生命是不完整的<br />這就是為甚麼死不是生的對立 而是它的一部份<br /><br />  "這鑽頭在這宇宙中打開了風穴<br />  這個風穴將成為後來者的道路<br />  已倒下之人的願望和...從後面趕上之人的希望<br />  兩份情感織入雙重螺旋之中，鑽出明日的道路！"<br /><br />每個人 甚至於每個生命<br />就像一個個小鑽頭<br />不管有沒有努力地去鑽<br />總有一天都會倒下<br />讓後面的鑽頭繼續走下去<br />"已倒下之人的願望和從後面趕上之人的希望"<br />如果不順應這個原則<br />最後不是擋著別人就是擋著自己<br />導致所有的風穴都消失殆盡<br />這就是為甚麼將生命從死亡拉回來<br />和沒有死亡的生命都不應該存在的原因<br /><br />所以 人活在這個世界上<br />只是為了死去<br />和在死去之前<br />想不想幹些甚麼而已<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-1582179372580691136?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-79039426572369822732009-05-09T16:58:00.002+08:002009-05-09T17:18:08.734+08:00Lacrimosa dies illa<br />Qua resurget ex favilla<br />Judicandus homo reus<br />Huic ergo parce, Deus<br />Pie Jesu Domine<br /><br />Judicandus homo reus<br />Huic ergo parce, Deus<br />Pie Jesu Domine<br /><br />那些充滿悲傷的日子<br />將隨著塵埃揚起的時刻遠去<br />有罪的人將得到審判<br />主啊,給他施以您的仁慈吧！<br />仁慈的主耶穌基督！<br /><br />有罪的人將得到審判<br />主啊,給他施以您的仁慈吧！<br />仁慈的主耶穌基督！<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-7903942657236982273?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-84284879459776187732009-04-26T23:32:00.006+08:002009-04-26T23:53:15.309+08:00麻坡的pc fair終於結束了....<br />感想是除了爛只有更爛....<br /><br />三天下來....<br />泡在會場內的時間應該有超過十五個小時....<br />也不知道自己為甚麼會泡在這麼一個鬼地方醬久....<br />或許是在期待甚麼吧....<br />可惜奇蹟并沒有發生....<br />給了別人很多建議....<br />也幫人殺價買東買西....<br />可就是自己一樣都沒買....<br /><br />還是甩一甩蔥來讓心情變好點吧....<br />雖然很久以前就聽過了....但這次是比較正式去找的....<br />聽說這首歌是程式跑出來的....傑克~這真是太神奇了~<br /><br />說到蔥....話說涅吉最近還真是猛啊....<br />外掛大絕不斷打到拉坎差點都領便當了....<br /><br />ps: 這絕對不是pc fair的度爛文....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-8428487945977618773?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-88253824438204325462009-04-08T15:14:00.001+08:002009-04-08T15:16:06.053+08:00<p>當和平得太久的時候<br />自然會打起來<br />當血流得太多的時候<br />自然會停下來<br /><br />反反覆覆<br />反反覆覆<br />反反覆覆<br />反反覆覆<br /><br />反反覆覆得讓人煩燥又無可奈何<br />這是雙螺旋的力量也是使命<br /><br />就像查爾斯所說的<br />世界本來就是不平等的<br />貧窮富有 聰明愚蠢 美麗丑陋<br />弱肉強食就是真理<br />物競天擇 適者生存<br />達爾文也用演化來支持這個論調<br /><br />所以 世界上只有兩種人<br />一種是掠奪者 一種是被掠奪的人<br />你不去搶 不去侵占 不去爭取 不去要求<br />就只能祈禱不被搶 不被侵占 不被取代 不被排除<br /><br />"我不知道第三次世界大戰用甚麼武器<br />但是第四次世界大戰人們的武器肯定是石頭和木棍"<br />這是愛因斯坦的名言之一<br /></p><p>覺得誇張的人可以看看一些數據<br />比如1961年10月30日蘇聯那顆1億噸TNT當量的氫彈威力<br />(實際上為了安全起見只放五千萬噸TNT當量 <br />而當時卻有能力製出十億噸TNT當量的氫彈)<br /><br />或者1986年4月26日的切爾諾貝利核事故<br />你就會了解到 愛因斯坦不但不誇張<br />還把事實誇小了 因為到那時候可能連人都沒有了<br /><br />人的智慧發展速度遠遠跟不上智力的發展速度<br />把愛因斯坦說的當成玩笑話<br />把現在的和平當成理所當然<br />把別處的戰爭當成解悶話題<br />等到事情發生了才來想辦法<br />或許這就是人類永遠都會重覆錯誤的劣根性<br /><br />頭腦清醒的人總是深切體會到人生是一種冒險<br />生命永遠必須從死亡中去奪取<br />踩在別人的屍體上前進<br />或是倒下去成為屍體<br />抗拒不了 也逃避不了的宿命<br /></p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-8825382443820432546?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-37292905286302299602009-03-17T20:38:00.009+08:002009-03-18T16:43:13.868+08:00在地底妄想了十七年<div>只換來十七天的生命</div><div><br /></div><div>同情 你不需要</div><div>憐憫 你不想要</div><div><br /></div><div>黑暗裡漫長的等待</div><div>得到的只是短暫的陽光</div><div>和放聲長鳴的空虛</div><div><br /></div><div>值得得意嗎?</div><div>得意之後你還剩下些甚麼嗎?</div><div>我又憑甚麼去評論?</div><div>而且到頭來不也是和你一樣嗎?</div><div><br /></div><div>只要有人 哪裡都一樣</div><div>都是一樣 都是一個樣</div><div>莫以成敗論英雄 卻以成敗論英雄</div><div>既然說的比唱的還好聽 何必再唱甚麼歌</div><div><br /></div><div>所以 也不必要去計較甚麼</div><div>高高興興地叫囂完後死去</div><div>也未嘗不是一件好事</div><div><br /></div><div>話雖如此 你臨死時仍緊緊捉著樹幹</div><div>用盡最後一分力氣來悲鳴</div><div>原來你也是說的比唱的還好聽的一份子</div><div>那是不是代表著我也一樣</div><div><br /></div><div>為甚麼到最後關頭卻看不開呢</div><div>抑或這是另一種形式的看開嗎</div><div>無論如何 你都沒辦法給我答案了</div><div><br /></div><div>而嘗試替代你的心情</div><div>去找尋答案的我 也找不到</div><div>也或許 一開始就根本不存在著答案</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-3729290528630229960?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-60964751718177549782009-03-17T15:00:00.000+08:002009-03-17T15:01:22.563+08:00<div>As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility</div><div>And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me</div><div>So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that</div><div>I've done things that haven't occurred yet</div><div>and things that they don't want to take responsibility for</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm sorry for the times that I left you home</div><div>I was on the road and you were alone</div><div>I'm sorry for the times that I had to go</div><div>I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know</div><div><br /></div><div>That you were sitting home just wishing we</div><div>Could go back to when it was just you and me</div><div>I'm sorry for the times I would neglect</div><div>I'm sorry for the times I disrespect</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done</div><div>I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons</div><div>I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware</div><div>That you can't sleep at night when I am not there</div><div><br /></div><div>Because I'm in the streets like everyday</div><div>I'm sorry for the things that I did not say</div><div>Like how you are the best thing in my world</div><div>And how I'm so proud to call you my girl</div><div><br /></div><div>I understand that there's some problems</div><div>And I'm not too blind to know</div><div>All the pain you kept inside you</div><div>Even though you might not show</div><div><br /></div><div>If I can't apologize for being wrong</div><div>Then it's just a shame on me</div><div>I'll be the reason for your pain</div><div>And you can put the blame on me</div><div><br /></div><div>You can put the blame on me</div><div>You can put the blame on me</div><div>You can put the blame on me</div><div>You can put the blame on me</div><div><br /></div><div>Said you can put the blame on me</div><div>Said you can put the blame on me</div><div>Said you can put the blame on me</div><div>You can put the blame on me</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm sorry for the things that he put you through</div><div>And all the times you didn't know what to do</div><div>I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags</div><div>Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad</div><div><br /></div><div>When you would rather be home with all your kids</div><div>As one big family with love and bliss</div><div>And even though pops treated us like kings</div><div>He got a second wife and you didn't agree</div><div><br /></div><div>He got up and left you there all alone</div><div>I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own</div><div>I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief</div><div>I'm sorry that your son was once a thief</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast</div><div>I wish I would of listened and not be so bad</div><div>I'm sorry that your life turned out this way</div><div>I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away</div><div><br /></div><div>I understand that there's some problems</div><div>And I'm not too blind to know</div><div>All the pain you kept inside you</div><div>Even though you might not show</div><div><br /></div><div>If I can't apologize for being wrong</div><div>Then it's just a shame on me</div><div>I'll be the reason for your pain</div><div>And you can put the blame on me</div><div><br /></div><div>You can put the blame on me</div><div>You can put the blame on me</div><div>You can put the blame on me</div><div>You can put the blame on me</div><div><br /></div><div>Said you can put the blame on me</div><div>Said you can put the blame on me</div><div>Said you can put the blame on me</div><div>You can put the blame on me</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm sorry that it took so long to see</div><div>But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me</div><div>I'm sorry that it took so long to speak</div><div>But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt</div><div>And for the embarrassment that she felt</div><div>She's just a little young girl trying to have fun</div><div>But daddy should of never let her out that young</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down</div><div>I hope they manage better next time around</div><div>How was I to know she was underage</div><div>In a 21 and older club they say</div><div><br /></div><div>Why doesn't anybody want to take blame</div><div>Verizon backed out disgracing my name</div><div>I'm just a singer trying to entertain</div><div>Because I love my fans I'll take that blame</div><div><br /></div><div>Even though the blame's on you</div><div>Even though the blame's on you</div><div>Even though the blame's on you</div><div>I'll take that blame from you</div><div><br /></div><div>And you can put that blame on me</div><div>And you can put that blame on me</div><div>You can put that blame on me</div><div>You can put that blame on me</div><div><br /></div><div>And you can put that blame on me</div><div><br /></div><div>And you can put that blame on me</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-6096475171817754978?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-50911249799885996402009-03-15T00:38:00.004+08:002009-03-15T01:01:04.265+08:00感覺得到 有些不安定因素正在蠕動著<div><br /></div><div>我是到了臨界點</div><div>還是早就超過了臨界點</div><div>似乎已經變得不重要</div><div><br /></div><div>值得一提的是</div><div>現在好像沒有甚麼是能夠阻止的</div><div>至少我想不到</div><div><br /></div><div>傷心?心痛?難過?</div><div>都被時間侵蝕得只剩下麻木</div><div>機械式的反應</div><div>配搭上偽裝與武裝</div><div>成就了自己 也殺了自己</div><div><br /></div><div>也許 站在平衡點的自己</div><div>往哪踩多一步都會萬劫不復</div><div>無法踏出去的悲哀</div><div>就是隨著平衡點像塵埃一般四處漂泊</div><div><br /></div><div>以為就這樣了此一生也不錯</div><div>到頭來還是無法釋懷</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-5091124979988599640?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-73316738645393776412009-02-22T17:37:00.008+08:002009-02-23T00:42:50.699+08:00昨天下午兩點半 和瑞祥一起去吃午餐<br />就是在貪吃街中間的裕記茶餐室<br />選擇的原因是我想吃飯 然後它剛好有賣飯<br /><br />吃飯時 正在天南地北間<br />有個自稱是馬口兒童之家的人來賣點東西<br /><br />首先 她出示了證件和一些兒童之家的檔案<br />然後 說了一些大家都耳熟能詳的台詞<br />賣的東西有筆記本 牙刷等小東西 一律賣十塊馬幣<br /><br />我的反應很簡單 從頭到尾都在吃飯 連眼角都沒看向她一眼<br />而瑞祥則是似有似無地聽著 然後等她講完時拿出十塊錢給她<br />并表示不需要那些東西 接著她就開了一張收據給瑞祥<br />然後在道謝聲中走了<br /><br />很明顯 故事到了這邊就要講道理了<br /><br />瑞祥給她錢的道理 和我不給她錢的道理 是一樣的<br />只不過立場相反而已<br />瑞祥覺得 如果她是真的 那麼不辭勞苦為了小孩子們籌錢 不給真是不近人情<br />我覺得 如果她是假的 那麼給了她錢不只幫不到小孩子 還助長了社會的歪風<br /><br />其次 如果我真的想幫那些小孩子 大可自己跑去兒童之家當義工或捐錢甚麼的<br />因此 立場的選擇 對我而言不是甚麼難事<br />但也因為我就是這樣的一個人 在一些事情的處理上可以說是不近人情<br />基本上就和壞蛋沒甚麼兩樣了 雖然我本來就不是甚麼好人<br /><br />合理不一定對 不合理肯定錯<br />這是我受過的教育 也是我處事的態度<br />因此一件事錯的機率永遠大於對的機率<br />帶著批判的眼去看人事物 我就是這樣的一個人<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-7331673864539377641?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-47911512636892993632009-02-15T14:47:00.003+08:002009-02-15T15:00:22.836+08:00或許 自己是幸福的<br />所以 想到不幸的人 會痛苦<br /><br />因此 將自己置身於等價的痛苦中<br />希望 以此來贖罪<br /><br />可是 無法贖清的罪<br />只會 一次次地鞭策自己的靈魂<br /><br />最後 只能選擇逃避<br />享受 那逃避帶來的自由<br /><br />無奈 逃避的自由是空虛的<br />唯有 歷經艱辛 伴隨著痛苦回憶而得到的自由才顯得真實<br /><br />畢竟 我可以獨自生存 卻沒有辦法獨自生活<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-4791151263689299363?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-1832478586002311612009-02-04T02:18:00.002+08:002009-02-04T02:22:17.509+08:00Love, I've got to feel it<br />If you put your trust in me<br />I know what my life would be<br />Oh, you are all I ever need<br /><br />I tried to hear what you say<br />So I pray,but you're fading away<br />Don't go and break my fragile heart<br />We won't fall apart'<br />Cause you're my only star<br /><br />I wonder why my tears come at night<br />Calling you, so like a little child<br />All the things you have in mind<br />I wish I could see you insides<br /><br />I feel alone and empty<br />You're far, that's why I can't bear to be<br />Move on, but it's not that easy<br />Oh, don't you know <br />I still believe.<br /><br />No one can stand in your way<br />Here I stay<br />There'll be another day<br />Won't cry and get rid of scars<br />Always in my heart<br />Gotta find a way to start<br /><br />How am I supposed to know what's right<br />Missing you, and I do lose my mind<br />Just wanna be by your side<br />I will wait for your love and smile<br /><br />I've been thinking of you , my dream...<br />Every time I take a breath, feel brand new<br />Open up you heart with my key<br />Oh, can't you hear my heartbeat<br /><br />My love, you've got to feel it<br />And if we put our trust in you and me<br />You know what our lives would be<br />Oh, you are the one I believe<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-183247858600231161?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-47088987745693173562009-02-02T00:25:00.005+08:002009-02-02T00:54:02.422+08:00世上有很多該死卻死不了的人<br />也有很多不該死卻死了的人<br />所以打從人類的道理和自然起衝突的那一天開始<br />就注定了會有悲傷的產生<br /><br />當然 甚麼人該死不是我說了就算的<br />因為這是件連上帝都無法決定的事<br />而且人本來就是種喜歡打破常規打破定理的生物<br />所以任何的承諾都只對一部份人有約束力<br />對其他人來說相對就是廢話<br /><br />那 連誰是該死的人都定義不了<br />理論又如何接得下去?<br />其實不是定義不了 只是這裡的定義是<br />我所認為的該死卻死不了的人<br />和我所認為的不該死卻死了的人<br /><br />如果你也看得到這些人<br />還有他們那不知所謂的公理和自相矛盾的正義<br />以及自然的無為和順應<br />不斷地不停地迴圈<br />注定造成這無盡的悲與傷<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-4708898774569317356?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-90830099284665277172009-01-25T16:02:00.003+08:002009-01-25T16:30:21.709+08:00正因為喜歡 分手才顯得難過<br />為了不難過而選擇不去喜歡嗎?<br /><br />明知道相遇的結果是分手<br />明知道出生的結果是死亡<br />那相遇和出生還有意義嗎?<br /><br />無論多麼珍貴的東西<br />不管是人是物 總有一天會失去的<br />羈絆 思念 回憶 心靈 生命<br />這個世上沒有不會消失的東西<br />幸福只是一種制造出來的虛無飄渺的存在<br />為了這種存在而努力值得嗎?<br /><br />如果這一切都沒發生 我會快樂嗎?<br />如果一切能重新來過 我會開心嗎?<br />如果生命能夠有彩排 我會高興嗎?<br />一切都在掌握之中 不去打沒把握的仗<br />這樣的勝利 值得慶祝嗎?<br />完美地呈現這種必然 真的會幸福嗎?<br /><br />這個世界擁有的<br />只是必然和偶然<br />還有甚麼人做了甚麼事而已....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-9083009928466527717?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-3015428409277648962009-01-24T22:09:00.004+08:002009-01-24T23:45:30.655+08:00上帝曾對我說過 他給了我連天使都沒有的權力<br />那就是選擇 我可以選擇善或惡 而天使只能選擇善<br /><br />或許 那只是他的一廂情願吧<br />并不是所有人都想選擇的<br />更甚者 在面臨抉擇時往往因舉棋不定而導致兩頭不著岸收場<br /><br />我也想當個好人 我也想幫助有需要的人<br />我也想帶給大家幸福與歡笑<br />可惜的是 只是我在想的想法而已<br /><br />自私的基因是不會因為我的想法而有所改變的<br />相反的 它會一寸寸地蠶食我的想法<br />每當我把想法付諸行動時<br />它就會展現其龐大而無法抵抗的威力<br />直到我不敢有想法為止<br /><br />所以 在選擇的這條路上 想法是多餘的<br />那所謂的選擇也失去了原本的意義<br />既然這樣 我只能選擇被遺忘<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-301542840927764896?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-65132719788489786342009-01-24T02:22:00.000+08:002009-01-24T02:28:51.739+08:00想法永遠是想法....當你沒去執行的時候....<br />無論多麼完美的計劃....多麼精確的判斷....<br />當你沒去執行的時候....所有的所有只會停留在筆上紙上腦袋瓜上....<br /><br />奈何!時不我與!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-6513271978848978634?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2294169045145333540.post-47286803493675464162008-12-26T22:43:00.000+08:002008-12-26T22:46:57.765+08:00沒有視覺效果的味道 往往更令人響往<br />有一點虛榮心的想法 總會去絆倒自己<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2294169045145333540-4728680349367546416?l=blahblahblahblacksheep.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>綿羊http://www.blogger.com/profile/12303767228756000032noreply@blogger.com1