Inconsolable

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor
When I let you walk away tonight
Without a word
I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh
If you were here right now, I swear,
I'd tell you this
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you
To you!
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
I climb the walls,yeah
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call?
Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you
To you!
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
I don't want to be like this,
I just want to let you know,
Everything that I'm holding,
Is everything I can't let go, can't let go.
It's Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you
To you!
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
'Cause don't you know it baby I don't want to waste another day
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
I'm inconsolable
I'm inconsolable

為了死去

雨越下越大了
冷颼颼的空氣
好像在欺騙著我說
剛剛的酷熱根本就不曾存在

小小的房間裡
敲鍵盤的聲音
點滑鼠的聲音
風扇軸承的聲音
雨滴打在屋瓦的聲音
偶爾夾雜一點點的雷聲
除此之外甚麼都沒有了

少得可憐的存在
重複不斷的節奏
如果不是桌面上時鐘的數字不停地往下個數字跳動
或許會讓我以為時間是靜止的
而這些存在則會跟著這個節奏無止境地重複下去
然後就這樣死去也不錯

人為甚麼要活在這個世界上?
你是這樣問的吧
人活在這個世界上大概是為了死去
至少大家都是這樣子
有的人做了些甚麼才死去
有的人甚麼都不做就死去
也有的人來不及做些甚麼就死去

每個生命的出生就注定了總有一天的死亡
沒有死亡的生命是不完整的
這就是為甚麼死不是生的對立 而是它的一部份

  "這鑽頭在這宇宙中打開了風穴
  這個風穴將成為後來者的道路
  已倒下之人的願望和...從後面趕上之人的希望
  兩份情感織入雙重螺旋之中，鑽出明日的道路！"

每個人 甚至於每個生命
就像一個個小鑽頭
不管有沒有努力地去鑽
總有一天都會倒下
讓後面的鑽頭繼續走下去
"已倒下之人的願望和從後面趕上之人的希望"
如果不順應這個原則
最後不是擋著別人就是擋著自己
導致所有的風穴都消失殆盡
這就是為甚麼將生命從死亡拉回來
和沒有死亡的生命都不應該存在的原因

所以 人活在這個世界上
只是為了死去
和在死去之前
想不想幹些甚麼而已

ララの子守唄

Lacrimosa dies illa
Qua resurget ex favilla
Judicandus homo reus
Huic ergo parce, Deus
Pie Jesu Domine

Judicandus homo reus
Huic ergo parce, Deus
Pie Jesu Domine

那些充滿悲傷的日子
將隨著塵埃揚起的時刻遠去
有罪的人將得到審判
主啊,給他施以您的仁慈吧！
仁慈的主耶穌基督！

有罪的人將得到審判
主啊,給他施以您的仁慈吧！
仁慈的主耶穌基督！