2009年3月17日 星期二

在地底妄想了十七年
只換來十七天的生命

同情 你不需要
憐憫 你不想要

黑暗裡漫長的等待
得到的只是短暫的陽光
和放聲長鳴的空虛

值得得意嗎?
得意之後你還剩下些甚麼嗎?
我又憑甚麼去評論?
而且到頭來不也是和你一樣嗎?

只要有人 哪裡都一樣
都是一樣 都是一個樣
莫以成敗論英雄 卻以成敗論英雄
既然說的比唱的還好聽 何必再唱甚麼歌

所以 也不必要去計較甚麼
高高興興地叫囂完後死去
也未嘗不是一件好事

話雖如此 你臨死時仍緊緊捉著樹幹
用盡最後一分力氣來悲鳴
原來你也是說的比唱的還好聽的一份子
那是不是代表著我也一樣

為甚麼到最後關頭卻看不開呢
抑或這是另一種形式的看開嗎
無論如何 你都沒辦法給我答案了

而嘗試替代你的心情
去找尋答案的我 也找不到
也或許 一開始就根本不存在著答案

Sorry, Blame It On Me

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there

Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad

When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief

I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani

I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She's just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young

I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say

Why doesn't anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame

Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

2009年3月15日 星期日

無法釋懷

感覺得到 有些不安定因素正在蠕動著

我是到了臨界點
還是早就超過了臨界點
似乎已經變得不重要

值得一提的是
現在好像沒有甚麼是能夠阻止的
至少我想不到

傷心?心痛?難過?
都被時間侵蝕得只剩下麻木
機械式的反應
配搭上偽裝與武裝
成就了自己 也殺了自己

也許 站在平衡點的自己
往哪踩多一步都會萬劫不復
無法踏出去的悲哀
就是隨著平衡點像塵埃一般四處漂泊

以為就這樣了此一生也不錯
到頭來還是無法釋懷